Wow the last time i wrote a journal entry was on my Birthday last year.Well im pretty board and i need to vent so why not writhe a new journal entry?Well life has been pretty good these last couple of months iv fallen in love then out of love then back into love not that i have a boyfriend or anything like that.So let me explain iv been really impatient these last couple of months with everything including with the opposite sex.See i when i was in 6th grade i made a promise to God that i wouldn't have a boyfriend unless i knew he was the one and iv been really content with that until a couple of months ago when i realized i had a crush on my churches drummer and not that i was expecting that i he was going to come out to me and tell me how much he liked me and how he though i was the one or anything in that nature.I told him and he said that he likes me but not in that way he was sort of interested in this girl at his school..yeah so i had this pathetic meltdown thing that involve crying and calling my poor friend Jennifer like 50 times a day to talk about how sad i was that the drummer dude didn't like me.So some time past by like 3 weeks(or an eternity in teen years)and this new kid at my church thats pretty hot not because of looks or anything(but it did help..and did i mention that he is a track star?)but because he had a tremendous amount of love towards God.Hes going to be a Pastor and i think that's awesome anyways.I notice that he had a specific look when he looked at me he always had like this tender smile when he looked at me (i know it sounds so corny..its pathetic)..at first i was just like..come on Amber get it together he doesn't like you,you just want him too.So i sort of pushed it to the side and moved on until we finally spoke and their wasn't a dough i knew he liked me..and i was on top of the world(corny..corny..corny)But after trying to start a relationship things sort of fell apart although everything was perfect and he fit in so well.But i understood why God wanted me to wait on his time and not on mine.Although its really hard because when i want something i want it and ill work for it until its here.But the lesson i learned the and am still learning is to wait on Him..because when His time comes..everything is just so perfect and you couldn't of planed it any better its really amazing and so Fallon more in love with God..Hes just amazing